5 MONTHS!!

I know I know I missed the 4 month post, but ya know life happens and it is often too fast to keep up with! July is one heck of month for us, it always has been; with holidays, my birthday, family reunions, and summer trips. I'll have to do a post on our California trip later on, it deserves its' own post. I want to have that documented while its fresh in my mind.

Anyways, without further ado here is our little (big) boy at 5 months!


QUICK STATS
- 18.4 pounds
- 29 inches long
- 90th percentile (not sure how important this is, but i looked it up anyways)
- SMILES ALL THE TIME
- loves mango, watermelon, peaches, apples, avocado, rice, sweet potatoes, water from MY cup!


PERSONALITY
- climbed out of his crib..... yea, I cried. Thought he was going to be traumatized, but when I RAN into his room to see him lying ON THE GROUND he smiled at me. Scared me half to death.
- SY absolutely loves face time with just about anyone but his cousins in particular are his favorite people to be around.
- uncle Noah brings a smile and a laugh to his face, always.
- Sy LOVES cheerleaders.... no other way to put it. I don know if it is their sparkly pom poms or makeup drenched faces that he likes. This new found love was realized at our small town parade last week. I had to walk along side the cheerleaders during the parade to keep him from crying. Oh boy.
- He is trying to be more and more independent at the table, reaching for the spoon and feeding himself. If I don't let him try alone he makes sure I know that he is frustrated by that.
- The only time he is ever really fussy is when we are all eating as a family and he can't have exactly what we are having! It could be worse, I am glad that is the extent of his worries :)
- outdoor lover, we walk everyday for miles
- I am sure he recognizes Shawn T's voice from the INSANITY workout tapes ;) yes I do that, and yes he loves to watch and even laughs when I move really fast.
- Sy does this intense sitting up position from his back  that looks like boat pose, his abs are certainly strong as a result.
- He thinks he going to get up and walk before learning to crawl.
- He loves sitting in the tee-pee in the morning while I get breakfast ready. He plays with toys and his toes.
- Since the discovery of his own feet he can't get enough of them!
- Loves dads nose... I mean LOVE LOVE LOVES his nose. He must think if he tries hard enough milk will come out.
- Getting more adventurous in the water and started splashing around in the pool and bath tub

We love you honey bear.
every roll, every dimple, every smile, every spit up, and every blow out poop.

You are the happiest babe ever :)

1 Month Old

Wow time has just flown by! 

I can't believe my boy is a month old already. It's funny how the days can be so long, but the weeks are so fast. Having a baby has changed the way Bentley and I perceive time. When we lay in bed with him all bundled up, happily staring at the ceiling fan, hours could go by and we could hardly notice. 

Azure you are so mesmerizing, papa and I are so so so in love.  There are no words to describe the depth of our love for you.

You have such a cute little attitude. If there is something off that you don't like, say a hand on your cheek, or bum, or feet you definitely let us know. When you're irritated for those reasons you give the stink eye and grunt, and occasionally buck.  Its pretty hilarious... most of the time.

When you go to sleep you LOVE to be rocked hard. I mean super forcefully, to the point where I wonder if all the milk I just gave you is going to come back at me just as forcefully.  But you are a movement junkie to the core, just like pa.

You burp like a grown man, seriously. Must be from the clark side of the family ;)

There are days when you look like a little old man to me. And then others when I see my newborn babe.

The water is your happy place, just like mama. I can tell I'll be teaching you how to swim extremely early. Your body calms so much that your arms and legs hang down behind you. And you normally pee a couple times in the warmth of the shower or bath. It is darling, but maybe only to your mom :)

Sometimes you giggle in your sleep. Your breathing quickens and I always think you are about to cry or get fussy and then a sweet smile spreads across your face and laughter fills the room.
These are the moments I live for.

You have finally taken to the binky. Finding your own fingers has not been an easy thing... I still have hope. Because man, when you lose that binky from yawning or just drifting to sleep enough to relax your jaw the whole world knows it! And until you can put it back in your mouth. . .

You are holding you're head up on your own SO well. Seriously for the last 2 weeks dad and I are blown away. When you hold your head up you arch back and look for our eyes and stare. You stare so deep, so inquisitively.

I love how you latch to our shirts and thumbs with your hands. When we sleep face to face you always do this.

Bentley says he has never seen or felt a newborn push so hard with his legs to stand. (and he had 28 nieces and nephews when I married him, WAY more experience with babies than me) When he holds you in a sitting up position you full on stand with his support under your arms. Lets start with crawling though, mama is a little worried about the toddler antics ahead. 

My boy, you are one month old today, and this is a smidgen of who you are.

I love you a bushel and a peck.

Azure Silas

The little things, 

and the little moments I don't want to forget....

Azure love sleeping tummy to tummy with me, nuzzled right in under my chest.
He reaches for my face in the dark and holds onto my cheeks
When its diaper time Azure can't stand it
Sunbathing is almost his #1 thing to do, second to nursing
Baby boy loves bentleys wraps WAY more than moms
He also loves driving, thank heavens.
If there is movement he is happy. Our morning dance routine has become a favorite for us both
He could spend all day in the bjorn carrier with dad if it weren't for hunger
His biggest diaper marathon consisted of 4 diaper changes within 20 minutes... blowout after blowout after... it was hilarious after the third one
Azure lost his umbilical chord on his 12th day of life
He grunts like he is always taking a poop
Water soothes him right to sleep, he could be hanging upside down and still fall asleep if being sponged with warm water.
His legs are so incredibly strong!
When he sleeps in the bassinet or the bed he HAS TO have his arms up above his head like he is lounging on the beach- he is my boy :) 
Better not disrupt him while nursing or he will give you the stink eye! 

Azure you are my sweet little angel, and I love you more than words can describe. 

You gave me the one thing I have wanted most in my life- to be a mom. You are gentle and observant and hardly ever cry.  I have been told you are an 'easy' new born. For that I am eternally grateful. Because there is so much to learn being a new mom and any time I even think you are in any discomfort I kinda freak out. But I am getting better at this everyday, your pa is teaching me so much. We are both so blessed to have Bentley in our life. 

Azure my darling, you are our best adventure yet!
i love you i love you i love

School... and Babies

So I have a lot on my mind about babies.

I feel the need to get it all down so that I can make room for my studies... My brain just works that way.     (if you could see my to-do lists you would be amazed at what little details I write!) 

Bentley and I are getting serious about bringing our first sweet babe into this world! Not like tomorrow or anything that soon, unfortunately. However I am going to stop by the birth center next week to check it out and probably rent books from their library. 

Babies and library books- best of both worlds :)

I plan on an all natural birth, preferably in the water with a midwife. I am still undecided if I want it to be at home or at the center. Maybe after a visit to the birth center and talking to a few midwives I will make up my mind with certainty. I know the answer will come to me, I have time to think.  I am open to going to the hospital, in an emergency... but that is really the extent of my desired involvement with hospitals and birth. 

More importantly I have always felt that bringing a new soul into this world naturally, in a calm & familiar environment, with as little stress as possible, never breaking that strong connection between infant and mother, is the absolute healthiest way to do it. Who needs an epidural? Let the oxytocin flow! Everything inside of me tells me it is the best way for me. Not for everyone, true, but for me it is instinctual. I have always been  super opinionated about drugs, doctors and the 'business' of being born, ever since I heard my birth story.  I'll just leave it at that....

You can look into it for yourself and make an educated decision. 

 Im looking for a wonderful midwife too so if you have any recommendations let me know! I am tickled just thinking about it. Bentley and I are so ready. 

There is one little thing standing in the way.... My Bachelors Degree program with WGU (Western Governors University) is not finished yet, not really even close. And the last 12 weeks of my program include student teaching! I can't exactly student-teach with a new born on my hip. So I will probably end up student-teaching with a belly-bump. Because patience has never been my strong suit and Bentley has been ready since... always. :) And even then, it's a ways off, but I am a PLANNER, I like to at least 'feel' that I have control of everything (haha) 

So here's to the beginning of a very exciting journey! 

I consider all the reading and investigating I've been doing (and will continue to do), the same as... Well...

...A positive pregnancy test. :)